False hypocrisy: Dissimulating righteousness beneath the pretense of wickedness

Why oh why, in spite of our screaming conscience and our deeply wounded humanity, do we remain pretending to be compelled and still insist on continuing this dark path of enduring the forcing of ourselves to pretend as if we are resolutely choosing to act in the way of wickedness -- rendering God's interests subservient to worldly purposes -- when inside of us intensely burns the purifying fire of God's Holy Spirit whose light is bursting with immensely glaring divine righteousness?